Disbelief is what you express when you get that phone call.
Anguish is what you feel when you realise that it isn’t a wrong number.
Throat closing speechlessness is what you experience when you have to tell your spouse.
Grief is overwhelming as you catch your spouse when they reach towards you.
Numbness is how you cope.
Waste is what I think about suicide.
Anger is what I feel when my husband grieves for his mother.